Today I read, "Oh The Places You'll Go" to my class. One of my students, recently back from a trip to Universal, bought it in Seussville and wanted to share it in honor of Dr. Seuss' birthday.
It's been a while since I've read the book, and I really wasn't prepared for all the profundity it held for me.
You see, today was the deadline to turn in contracts, or a letter stating your intent to not return. It was a sad day amongst my closest Pinares friends and myself--those of us who, with heavy hearts, turned in letters, and not contracts. In two or three stiff, formal sentences it felt as if three of my most wonderful years came to an undramatic close.
I'm sad. So sad to leave these children I've come to love so much, and these friends I can now call bests. But even though I cry at the drop of a hat nowadays, thinking about leaving...I still don't see myself here next year. I still feel like the decision to leave is right. I feel peace. Which is weird to say for someone who hides her tears from the bus kids almost every day (I don't know what it is--maybe the time it gives me to think--but I get choked up all the time on the bus lately; thinking about "my babies!")
I turned in my letter without any fuss... the secretary wasn't at her desk so I just dropped it off and left. No questions, no talking... nada. I didn't think much about it after that, until Dr. Seuss had to barge in and spew profound nonsense at me. At first, I did just fine as I read the last book Seuss published before he died. However, near the end it was hard not to cry as I thought of all the places my kiddoes are going and all that awaits them!
"You'll get mixed up, of course,
as you already know.
You'll get mixed up
with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life's
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left.
And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.)
KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!"
I want them to move mountains! ( ... I'd like them to do it by having faith as small as a mustard seed (see Matthew 17:20). I want them to succeed! I DON'T wan't them to "mixed up with many strange birds" as they go! I hope I've taught them, in some small way, how to "step with care and great tact."
And I hope I can keep it together when I start to tell them I'm not going to be here next year.
You can read the whole "Oh the Places You'll Go" here.